Raw Truth

I’ve made a lot of mistakes growing up. Heck, I still make mistakes every day.

I’m not perfect, nor have I ever claimed to be. I read things that were written long ago, by myself; and I wonder what I’d be like if I’d not made certain decisions. I’ve  always feared that I’d be someone who just mosies through life and doesn’t make any kind of impact. No long-lasting impression.

I remember always hearing growing up that there was so much talent in a graveyard. So many people who died without knowing or fulfilling their purpose. I don’t want to be one of those people and that is my biggest fear.

I refuse to be inadequate. I refuse to be unfulfilled.

So everyday when I wake up, I try to take a step into the direction of my being and my purpose. Have I figured out what that is? I think so. Or the yearning in my heart says so anyway. I don’t want to be famous. I want to help people.. I want to make people happy. I want to be fulfilled whilst I fulfill the needs of others.

I feel like if I don’t get out what’s inside me I’ll implode. I’ll die with all my purpose within me.

I think a lot.. everyday about things that are happening around me.. to me and sometimes I get scared. There, I said it. I get scared, every day that I will never be the person I was born to be then in that split second I realise how crazy that sounds, and the only one that would stop me from achieving what I know I am fully capable of doing (and being!) is myself.

How crazy is that?

I am standing, I am awake and I am ready.

~ by originalapplejunkie on February 1, 2014.

4 Responses to “Raw Truth”

  1. It’s fine to make mistakes, but you should grasp the learning to make sure that your next mistake is different from the previous ones. Life is too short to make mistakes committed by others, so try avoiding mistakes which you have seen other people commit.

    • That is definitely truth there. Progress can’t happen and we are not learning if the same mistakes are made repetitively. I find that noting the mistakes of others may be easier for some.. They won’t admit they’ve made a mistake but a lot do.
      I do try and learn from the mistakes of others.. But sometimes I do make mistakes I’ve seen before. It’s all a big learning curve I guess.
      Thank you for the comment 🙂

  2. Good to hear it. You’re already doing just great Apple. Keep going 🙂

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