Raw Truth

I’ve made a lot of mistakes growing up. Heck, I still make mistakes every day.

I’m not perfect, nor have I ever claimed to be. I read things that were written long ago, by myself; and I wonder what I’d be like if I’d not made certain decisions. I’ve  always feared that I’d be someone who just mosies through life and doesn’t make any kind of impact. No long-lasting impression.

I remember always hearing growing up that there was so much talent in a graveyard. So many people who died without knowing or fulfilling their purpose. I don’t want to be one of those people and that is my biggest fear.

I refuse to be inadequate. I refuse to be unfulfilled.

So everyday when I wake up, I try to take a step into the direction of my being and my purpose. Have I figured out what that is? I think so. Or the yearning in my heart says so anyway. I don’t want to be famous. I want to help people.. I want to make people happy. I want to be fulfilled whilst I fulfill the needs of others.

I feel like if I don’t get out what’s inside me I’ll implode. I’ll die with all my purpose within me.

I think a lot.. everyday about things that are happening around me.. to me and sometimes I get scared. There, I said it. I get scared, every day that I will never be the person I was born to be then in that split second I realise how crazy that sounds, and the only one that would stop me from achieving what I know I am fully capable of doing (and being!) is myself.

How crazy is that?

I am standing, I am awake and I am ready.

~ by originalapplejunkie on February 1, 2014.