Day 315..#Something’s Gotta Give..


I can’t believe it’s Friday already..the weeks are going too fast right now!

I’m still trying to get up to date with my University work, but it’s quite difficult because I’m tired all the time..and most days I’m finding it a challenge to stay awake.

I cannot study in my room. That much, I already has always been that way.

I always wake up with good intentions and throughout the day find everything that hasn’t ever been distracting to me exactly that.

Even now..I find myself dozing off..

I’m not anaemic..that would explain a lot if I were..but that is not the case..

I’m just working really hard..all the time..but as much as I am working hard..I am also resting in equal I’m not overdoing anything.

I’m always in bed before 12 midnight and awake by 7 or 8am, dependent upon what time I have a class.

I’m also eating yesterday when the kitchen stove broke down..I am eating properly.

I have my 5 (usually more) portions of fruit and veg a day, my protein, starch and carbohydrates and on occasion, little treats.

I eat healthy. I’m fit, I I do not understand all the fatigue and where it’s coming from.

I don’t think  I eat enough kale though.

I love kale.. it’s so delicious.

But back to my trauma.

Maybe I’m not resting as much as I think I am..or maybe I am overworking myself..or maybe I’m just imagining all this so I have an excuse to fall asleep and not to do any work.

I was supposed to have the weekends off to do my Final Year Project..but I’m finding that I haven’t done enough work so I can’t do what I’ve planned to.

I need to create a timetable. I think that’s what the problem is.

This is the first time I haven’t had a timetable OR a diary (I misplaced my diary and my life has been such a stress since I’m just waiting until January to get a new one because I don’t like Academic Diaries..I like full year ones) maybe this is just a sign of me not being able to cope without order.

My life has always had order..and not a formal complex structure, but a structure of a framework..

Now I have nothing.

I feel like I am flying around in limbo..and that needs to stop because clearly it’s wearing me out.

I keep saying “by next week, x, y, z will be sorted..” and even though I have every intention to, I still find that a week later, it’s still in the works..

This is so unlike me.

I am definitely not taking this attitude into the next week with me..because frankly I’m appalled at myself too much!

A friend of mine told me to make sure I’m taking time to rest..and I think I am..but there is so much that I need to get done, and it definitely feels like there are not enough hours to do everything in.


Something has definitely got to give!

~ by originalapplejunkie on November 9, 2012.

20 Responses to “Day 315..#Something’s Gotta Give..”

  1. Sounds like you need to get a new diary, jot your to-do list, and drink a cup of coffee! Good luck honey!

  2. Sounds like you have not figured out what is the best work routine for you. I think it sounds like you – like me – can’t easily concentrate on study tasks without getting tired very easily.

    The solution may well have nothing to do with getting more rest – sounds to me like you are looking after yourself well in that respect – but in how you study. I don’t know your details, of course, but the advice I give my students (and it is damned good advice that WORKS) is to break up your study into regular but small amounts and put other activities that keep your brain active inbetween.

    So, for instance, do 20-30 minutes study then go for a run (or other exercise if you’re not a runner). during that time, go over in your head what you have just studied or written, Review it, think about what is coming next etc. etc.

    Then go back to the study, do another 20-30 minutes and then do some other activity. Do NOT be tempted to go have a lie down, watch TV or anything like that. Those things turn your brain off. The trick is to keep your brain stimulated by changing your activity regularly but not allow it to go into ‘hibernation’ by relaxing too much.

    Hope that helps! 🙂

    • Do you know what I think it is Ken?
      I went to Portugal and relaxed way too much! Now I’ve come back and the workload is more demanding I’m getting back into the swing of things and trying to also get used to the deadlines and other things that I have to get done.
      I also get tired thinking about all I have to do and always feel like maybe if I postpone it to the next day when I’m less tired, I am more likely to complete the task!
      LIES! I never used to procrastinate! Now it’s standing here..dancing in my face and trying to steer me off course! I refuse to let it work!

      I used to do 30 minute slots, then have a 15 minute break, then have another 30 minute slot, then it would continue like that, and over time I was able to increase it to a 45 minute study period and a 15 minute break. It worked extremely well for me!
      When I go to the library tomorrow..I’ll try that!

      It did help a lot Ken, because I honestly forgot that I used to do that!
      Thanks again for the advice!! 🙂

  3. We all go into a funk sometimes. Sounds you have a lot on your plate. I understand how that feels. Diaries are not what makes order, you do. Have you thought about using some planning software or even using your blog? Just a thought. 🙂

    • I am a pretty organised person..I prefer to use paper and pen though because in the past, software has let me down!
      I think also being out of the country for a year and coming back had made me a little less disciplined than I was before I left..but I know that and I am working on getting back to being the bright spark I know I can be.
      And you know what..I don’t need a diary, all I need to do is wake up in the morning and be like “ I am doing work. I will finish it, and I will get it done!”
      I appreciate the advice 🙂

  4. I am so useless at getting myself a proper schedule and then sticking to it… that’s where I’m going wrong right now. It could be stress as well that’s making you more worn out than usual. It’s probably the additional pressure. You’ll get there. 🙂

  5. Awww, I feel you AJ 😦
    I hope that trend changes soon and that radiant smile shines always.
    I just returned from my travels and will try to catch up on your other posts. Just so so busy today. God bless

    • Take your time Scott..I’m behind on my readings too! I always say I’ll take out some time to just sit down and catch up, but that hasn’t come yet..hopefully this week it will!
      This week has started off attitude is much better than last week and even though I’m tired..I feel tired AND amazing! I’m happy I’m no longer feeling like I’m defunct!

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