Day 286..#Feelings..

You know when you think you are over something..over someone and you hear their name and everything stops?

The pit of my stomach just felt like it gave way.

I don’t know if I’ve ever been in love..but I’ve liked..really hard. I guess I’d know if I’d been in love right? It’s just..I have nothing to compare it to.

My feelings and emotions are all over the place right now.

I feel like my heart has been ripped out and stamped on. Again.

It sounds dramatic, but that’s how I feel.

I thought I was over this. I thought I was fine. I’ve felt the pain from before and lived on and forgiven..So why haven’t I forgotten?

It’s so frustrating thinking you have moved on only to find you had not progressed as much as you thought you had.

I don’t want my chest to ache and my stomach to churn when I think about it.

I want to think happy thoughts..

Maybe I’m not quite there yet..but I will be.

 

Like all good things it takes time.

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~ by originalapplejunkie on October 11, 2012.

9 Responses to “Day 286..#Feelings..”

  1. Aww 😦 😦
    Me and most others can relate to this for sure. Your human nature is to desire a special someone, so even if it wasn’t the “true love” it was still something, so while not having someone (I assume) it will resurface in harsh ways. Just be careful and don’t do like some do and try to fill the emptiness carelessly. You deserve the best. Hugs

    • Your assumption is right.
      It’s weird..because I’m okay with not having someone..but with him it was just different..then it all collapsed suddenly and I left the country in haste because I couldn’t stay here..so I guess I never really dealt with it maybe..
      I’ll be okay..I won’t try and fill the void..usually just makes you feel worse..
      Thanks Scott

  2. i have been there also, and even today after over 20 years of a divorce, i can feel something. it comes and goes quickly, usually, and i believe that we hold special moments deep in our heart for loved ones of our past, but our heart can heal and also remember at the same time

  3. Hugs 🙂 Thinking of you. Can only say you will get through it eventually but I think you know that already and it doesn’t take the pain away now.

  4. No point asking me Apples, I don’t do feelings – that’s a girl thing. My only advice would be to find a field and run around it at top speed or find someone to have a good fight with….either of those will sort you out.
    If you need a hug then Bones is here for you but don’t tell anyone, wouldn’t want them to think I’ve gone soft.

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