Day 198..#I Asked One Day That I Be Excused..

I asked one day that I be excused.

Excused from the pleasantries of life.

Saying “no” did not come easy,

It was always yes and definitely.

I asked one day that I be excused.

Excused from the person that everyone looked at to always be there,

I was the person you could count on..and my feelings..what feelings?

I asked one day that I be excused

Excused from your expectations

Because if at first you don’t succeed..Unless you make the decision to get up, no one is going to lend a helping hand.

I asked one day that I be excused

Excused from the belief that I was not good enough,

What I failed to realise was that me being good enough for me was never going to be good enough for you.

I asked one day that I be excused

Excused from the stereotype that you insisted I had no choice but to be

But if you looked carefully, you would realise that I was the countertype..a representation that challenges your muddy mindset.

I asked one day that I be excused

Excused from everyone thinking because I was so nice it meant I was a pushover

Don’t let my smile fool you.

I asked one day that I be excused

Excused from forgetting the pain from times past.

Realising that without it, I probably wouldn’t be half the young lady I am today.

I asked one day that I be excused

Excused from how I viewed myself..my low self-esteem..the constant self-loathing

Enough to think that loving yourself just the way you are is much easier than trying to fix what you think is wrong..but isn’t.

I asked one day that I be excused,

So please, excuse me whilst I begin taking care of me, whilst still taking care of you.

You look at me funny.

“The order is different” I reply, “With all due respect, it shall no longer be you, before I”

 

(c) July 2012

 

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~ by originalapplejunkie on July 16, 2012.