Day 106..#Inspiration..

(This post was inspired by Bird)

You know when you read through old journal entries and get a feel of the person you used to beΒ whenever it was written?

Talk about flashback to 2008..first year of University and I was all emotional and what not..

Okay..maybe not emotional..but you know..

..It’s weird looking back and reading..the evolution of it all..

I was a pretty sad kid..not openly..I knew how to hide it well..I’d go as far to say I was pretty good at lying..

..But I think..from reading..I was clearly a very broken person..for many reasons..and knew that no one would understand..

I’d left my friends and family 200 miles away..and I wasn’t coping..

..But I could never tell them that..so I said nothing at all..

Some parts made me smile..you know when I realised the whole world wasn’t against me..

 

Then I delved into photographs..and MAN were they FUNNY! From High School times..to college times..to University..some years of my life in photo’s..

Photographs are so important..they trigger memories that you think you’ve forgotten until you see them again..

A lot makes me smile..and honestly..I know those things will continue to make me smile..

 

Fast forward like 5+ years..and I think I’m finally starting to get the hang of this “who am I” thing..

..and it’s strange because it was never something I can say I’ve known..at 22 better late than never eh? πŸ˜›

And for the fact that I believe I’m finally starting to identify..it blows me away..

 

So since blogging..Bird (from Everyone Has A Story) has become one of the most inspirational bloggers I know. Her matter of factness..the fact that she is so frank..and honest..allows me to look forward to reading her posts every day.
Yesterday..she wrote a post called Β How I Began To Make Peace With Who I AmΒ and since yesterday I’ve been thinking..a lot. I “liked” the post..but couldn’t bring myself to leave a comment because of the fear of being human I guess..and I couldn’t really justify in words at that point just how it made me feel.

It’s true..everyone does have a story..and how people decided to deal with their past and tell their stories are different..

I’ve only just started to deal with things that happened to me probably over the last two and a half to three months..and in this post..she just encapsulated lost feelings and emotions of things that I never even knew still bothered me..things that I never even knew I remembered..and dealing with all of it kinda makes me feel again..

Bird inspires me everyday..whether she knows it or not (but I guess she does now..lol)Β and I’ll kind of always think that that post was for me..because I always say God will use the most unexpected routes to get your attention..and He has my attention πŸ˜›

So this is just a thank you to Bird..who unknowingly confirmed something I’ve been waiting to hear for a very long time.. πŸ™‚

 

This is what I leave for you fellow bloggers πŸ™‚

[1] For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven.
[2] A time to be born and a time to die. A time to plant and a time to harvest.
[3] A time to kill and a time to heal. A time to tear down and a time to build up.
[4] A time to cry and a time to laugh.Β A time to grieve and a time to dance.
[5] A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones. A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
[6] A time to search and a time to quit searching. A time to keep and a time to throw away.
[7] A time to tear and a time to mend. A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
[8] A time to love and a time to hate. A time for war and a time for peace.

*Ecclesiastes 3 vs 1-8*

A few photographs from time past πŸ™‚

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~ by originalapplejunkie on April 16, 2012.

29 Responses to “Day 106..#Inspiration..”

  1. Apple. I just had to sit here and cry for a minute. I have no idea how I seem to inspire you guys…I’m just overwhelmed by how much you guys touch me. It isn’t all that hard to bare your soul when the people watching you are so kind and generous! I am looking at your pictures, and I’m so glad you put them up here, because now I have a real face to put with your name and voice. Thank you for making me feel worth-while with my little blogging adventure. I love you, too!

    Crazy ride, this life is, isn’t it???

    • Aww..please don’t cry! I’m being very honest..
      I’m just starting to become comfortable accepting that some things have happened to me..and the fact that they have..I shouldn’t be defined by them..ashamed or embarrassed..about me..
      That’s the funny thing about life..and something you said..people go through things to help other people through the same situations..I’m finding things a little easier to talk about and put out there..I’ve still got a while to go yet..but I am getting there..slowly but surely
      You have no idea how convenient the word crazy is..

      All I ask is that you never change πŸ™‚

      • lol..too late for me..I can’t change. It took me too much of my life to arrive here!! Jesus wants us all, and if some of His kids have to experience a glimpse of hell here on earth in order to save others, He’ll do it. I can respect a God like that… πŸ™‚ You have a sweet soul, Apple. Whatever the devil tossed your way is an attack, but it in no way defines who you are. You are a child of God, preparing for your battles, but knowing that we win the war at the end. Enjoy your life, but be prepared for a bumpy one…the really useful Christians don’t have Noodle Salad lives… ❀ Bird

      • So totally true..
        I think realising how broken I was has helped me define that doesn’t have to be who I am.. πŸ™‚
        And people like you..whether its knowingly or not..just help reconfirm that God indeed is watching out for us..
        I got so angry when I realised the attack of the enemy..like..I was so highly offended..
        But it’s true..we will always win the war on the end with God on our side! πŸ˜€
        Sending love right back to ya! ❀

  2. Nice writing and cute pics! πŸ˜€
    I of course can relate to the reading of old journal entries and seeing old pics.
    Well, doing new things and adjusting to them or accepting new norms is one of the most important parts of personal growth I think. Remember the comfort zones quote…

    • I do remember the quote! And I can say it’s very true!
      I sounded so depressed and alone and scared and all sorts of other things..I stopped reading because I was feeling bad..so I moved onto pictures..
      The personal growth is amazing..and I think long overdue πŸ™‚
      Thanks Scott

  3. πŸ™‚ I loved this one…obviously! I added it to my Things That Mean Alot To Me Page…

  4. Bird is special. πŸ™‚ Very nice blog. πŸ™‚

  5. I love Eccl chapter 3 πŸ™‚

  6. This is the first time I’ve visited your blog, and I LOVE the first post I’ve read. πŸ™‚ You sound like such a fun, deep, introspective girl. I like you.

    P.S. As soon as you figure out who you are, she will change. A person is internal evolution in progress.

    • Thank you! πŸ™‚
      I think as I’m learning more about myself..it’s coming through in my posts..things I used to be fearful about speaking or writing about..they’re not an issue anymore..
      I think..now that I’m finally finding out who I am..I’ll expect to change..but now instead of changing to try and fit in with what society, friends and other people want for me and trying to be the square peg in the square hole..I’m changing to what God wants for me and “daring to be different” in spite of the situation.. πŸ˜›

  7. Great post! And the comment above is simply beautiful. I hope to get over to the blog you referenced and read that for myself, but want to assure you that you are also one of the most inspirational bloggers around. πŸ™‚

  8. Oh, by the way….keep “daring to be different” and trusting God as you seek to be who He has created you to be!

  9. Pearls of wisdom! Your photographs are gorgeous and you’re so right, they are extremely important! I love looking back at photographs, they really can brighten up a tough day! πŸ™‚

  10. You have some sweet photos posted. It looks like you’ve had a happy childhood. But I dare say at 22, your metamophasis has only begun. We all change with time, with life’s events, and with exposure to the world around us. I hope as the years go by and you bloom, the sun will shine on you, with just enough rain to nourish your soul. Youth is such a gift. Treasure it. Advice from an ‘older’ person. LOL. I too am still in metamorphsis and I have 30 years on you, young lady. But I hope you’ll find, your memories have just begun. πŸ™‚

    • Thank you so much for that! And I completely agree..I expect to constantly be changing..but it’s just now I feel like I’m really starting to be that person I always knew I was but couldn’t find..
      I will definitely treasure my youth..to be honest..I’m not in a big rush to grow up and fully step into the big wide world..we’ll see..*he he*
      Thanks for stopping by! πŸ™‚

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