Now that graduation is looming..I have quite a bit on my mind..
These past few months have got me thinking so much about a future I was so sure about a few years ago..but now that it’s drawing closer, I’m starting to question.
Deep down, I think I know what I want.. But it just doesn’t seem like it’s within my grasp.
I’m questioning.. almost second guessing myself. A lot.
I often think about if I’d decided on a different course of life.. Would I have had the same experiences.. Been presented with the same opportunities..Met the same people? But I realise that those “What If’s..” are wasted..because they didn’t happen.. and I know the more I think about was wasn’t as opposed to what is..it won’t change anything at all..
Don’t get me wrong..I’m so ready to start life and get on with it.. And I am happy with life now.. But it seems like the end of this chapter is hanging by a thread in the balance as opposed to be poised and standing to attention.
I haven’t written in a while, which I think is where I’ve been going wrong.
I haven’t blogged as much..written anything in my journal or thought of any new spoken word pieces..and I think that the pent-up frustration that usually comes out on paper has now built up to a point where something’s got to give..
I don’t know if I’m certain about anything any more..
And I guess that’s okay..
~ by originalapplejunkie on March 11, 2013.